My Story

In my entire life I never thought of myself as creative. Even though every personality, psychological or skills assessment always revealed that I am a creative person, I never believed it.

I wanted to believe it. I felt it deep inside. My grandmother started painting in her 60’s and the few works she made were absolutely beautiful. I had many times imagined working with paint in an abstract way. I had no desire or belief that I could paint landscapes or people. I cannot even draw stick people LOL. But I knew I felt the colors in paint. I felt the movement of abstract works of art. I could feel the actual lines and curves when I looked at abstract paintings.

I also have had a deep desire to learn and create many other things.

When I had health problems I learned everything I could about plant based nutrition and felt a connection to the food I used to nourish my body back to health.

When I started feeling the effects of stress due to a traumatizing relationship, I learned how to manage my stress, my psychological health, and my future.

And so, when the pandemic hit, I took to nature. My husband and I had just moved into a wooded, secluded haven and we spent our days hauling brush, building garden beds and preparing our yard to be a sanctuary during a time when we would be isolated for the summer.

Within the first month of quarantine in 2020, my best friend asked if I wanted to sign up for a paint and vino virtual event. We had done these in the past, in person though, not virtual. And the prior classes we had taken were not abstract and I felt much more confined and stressed than with this particular class.

This class was a fluid art class where we layered paints in a cup and poured them over a glass vase stood upside down on a canvas. After pouring on the vase we set it aside to finish dripping while balanced on a plastic cup. We then tilted the canvas with the remainder of the paint that dripped off of the vase to have an abstract painting that matched our vases. Below is a picture that I took the night of the class. I know it is extremely simple but I honestly thought it was the most beautiful thing I had ever created, and I am usually very critical of myself no matter what I do.

From that day forward I have been completely unleashed. I have jumped into the deep end of acrylic fluid art and spent unknown amounts of time, money and passion playing with paint. It opened up an outlet in me that I had always known was there but had no idea how to let it out.